As I lie there in the dark, I try in to shut my mind off..
But it doesn’t work.
It never does.
While I want to do is sleep and turn off my mind, my memories choose differently.
Eyes closed, my thoughts drift off to you and the memories of a time that once was…
Some beautiful, some sad, but all of a time and place that makes my heart sigh.
I told myself so many times that I would walk away from you, forget all the times, words and feelings, but it’s just not that easy with you.
I can never just let you go- that’s never been the way of us.
You’re part of me now, and no matter where we end up, the memories we made and the times we had…I will carry those with me always.
Maybe we will end up down the road somewhere together, maybe we won’t…
That’s almost not for me to decide, because I’ve learned that fate has its own plan for us.
So, as I lie there in the darkness, memories of us drench me, I just linger quietly in that place.
It’s actually comforting if I let it warm my heart, so I’m choosing to hang onto the happiness.
Maybe one day soon, I’ll see you again and smile…
Until then, I have my dreams, my memories and the parts of you that I will always tuck away in my heart.
That’ll always be my happy place, and I’m good with that.
I really don’t have a choice, I guess..
So, until I find myself smiling in your arms again, I’ll think of you and find some happiness.
I’ll carry you with me always, and always will I love you so.
